Tuesday, December 20, 2005
sO LoNG sTill dunno...
Haiz.. haha... hI aLL... sTill dun kNow wAd Is bLoGGin foR, bUt sInce many people doin it.. so muz be kinda fun bahz... feel kinda left out if i dun start bloggin... like some left out alien.. Now working at pasta causeway.. Kinda fun, except still can't really fit into the people there... trying hard though.. can even name some of them here.. : Matthew, Wen Sheng, Pei Ling, Grace, Deborah, Victoria, Emma, Daniel, MeiLing, Ah Yang, Jack, Ricky, Stefani, Yi Tong, Adam, Len, Winson, Colin, Ying Wei ( i think..) , Melvin, Zul, Thomas( this one wun dunno de), Elaine and Guo Rong. Should be all i think? Friendly people there la.. .. all nice nice people.. ..
Enough bout the pasta oredy... hungry now... shit man... got two essay questions haven't attempt.. then gonna skip hockey tomorrow again.. .haha.. slacker me.. so seldom man.... wun see me slack everytime one la.. its just that the psychological test thomas send me result show that i mentally and physically tired, need a break or gonna snap.. I dun really feel tired though.. juz feel that got too many a things undone... too many things i never put in effort... too many things i wanna achieve in this life... too many expectations of my self... too many self contradictions... too many things i cannot let go off...
So i'm just kinda like drifting about , like driftwood la... no aim at all... i just really need a quiet spot in this world.. where no one will notice me.. then i can really let go of everything for once... not death wish though... i find the suicide people very selfish... never think of those around them.. not like me.. think so much about them that i forget to think of myself sometimes... not trying to be great or something.. but just a can't bear to see people suffer when i can actually make a difference...
Found this S.H.E song very nice.. called Tian Hui ( Grey Sky)... very nostalgic that kind.. the slow slow, but not will sleep that kind... kinda sad, kinda relaxes me that kind one... the lyrics i like la... the kind of the helpless helpless kind one... feeling hopeless is kinda like me... but still i can go around showing people that i hold hope high, and want them to do so too... I'm the kind where i dun like to see people who i know fall... even if i have to fall to do so.. and i hate people who enjoy seeing those that never do anything to them fall ... plain assholes... nothing but shit from them... i like to ka chiao this kinda people one... haha... prankster me takes over from then... ...
Posted at 9:01 AM