Wednesday, October 28, 2009
passive abilities
dreams. are my reality.
i dreamt of something weird. really weird.
i was sitting in a cold place, built out of carved ice, as i vividly rememeber. strangely i felt relieved and safe in that place. i then reached out to touch the walls, and they shone with a faint glow. play too much games?
then i had this urge to look out of the window (which was a nicely shaped hole big enough with a ledge to sit on), and gazed upon a beautiful night sky. it wasn't exactly the starry sky scene. it was more of a sky with grey clouds, yet at the same time stars were present. the stars faintly glowed at random..
then i sat down on the ledge, and i saw the coolest thing in my "room", i had a mini pool.. but not for swimming kind.. it was a small water body... and the water didn't look drinkable.. it was this clear liquid that reflected your image juz like a mirror... and i saw my reflection... i had white hair, and white lips.. so scary rite? and my eyes had this strange light around it...
then .. i woke up.. !!
think i going crazy ar..
Posted at 9:53 PM
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
blurg...
gr8! i'm blogging at work... simply cuz i'm swarmed with stuff beyond what i'm paid for!
ain't it fantastic! edwin is such a gr8! wurker! come'on, give him all the small nitty gritty stuff not worth your attention and let him handle it! he'll process it at machine fast lightning speed and zip zap its done!
this moral war is so annoying! arrgh!.. so should i perform here or not? part of me says i should pour heart and soul into what i'm doing, the "zo -sui sui" attitude, but if you put it on the scales with career prospects and the "reality factors (pay, career)", the scales will be tipped towards the reality side...
but asking me to not"zo-sui sui" is somewhat sickening... can't stand the idea of "knowing wad went wrong and choose to live with it".. its so NS.. arrgh...
but then again, when you're involved in all the "beyond jobscope" stuff again.. the warped thought of "$7.4 per hour" juz keeps haunting you!.. then things like "lousy benefits", "second class employee", "no prospects", bah the list can go on and on and on.. and on..
damn, getting 1k+ is kinda not enough for spending comfortably... and capella still owes me my pay... gr8...
Posted at 8:35 PM
Sunday, October 18, 2009
please don't stop the rain
Motivation really comes randomly ..
Just a simple song in yi xiang's car, and it really made my day..
Please don't the rain, by james morrison.. wow.. powerful .. (IMMD! It - Made - My - Day!)
decided to change ... after being down for so long... the old Edwin has gotta appear.. somehow..
gotta start smiling.. gotta start talking.. gotta end the spiral..
new attitude.. awesome ain't it? well, not exactly new la.. its juz the want to be me again..
wanted to change .. but guess i juz can't .. its an Edwin thing.. what ever may come.. take it.. head on!
Posted at 7:56 AM