Friday, December 26, 2008
Aftermath
It was 24th and we were counting down to christmas,
It was 26th and we were counting down to Thomas's birthday
Its gonna be 31st and we'll be counting down to New Year
Its gonna be 11th and we'll be counting down to Yanling's 21st
How many times am I gonna countdown!? Its crazy!
So many commitments, so many friends, so much fun out there.
But, Edwin still relishes the idea of silent quiet countdowns.
Even though its a little boring, but, its really no fun when we have to always worry
about transport, money, food, people, the usual mundane problems. I'm not an angel ... ...
yet... ...
Posted at 10:53 PM
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Freedom
On 111108.I was free again.
But,
When freedom is presented to one who has had it fractured, portioned for 1 yr 10months,
One really need some time to react to it.
It feels alien,
Like its the first time i'm seeing it, even though i vaguely remember what i used to do with it.
Its like recovering from amnesia, slowly.
It is much appreciated,
Like a child given his candy after a long pleading attempt,
But the child will soon know that candy can be easily obtained when he grows up
And learn to not cherish it.
I don't want to lose it again
For i do not wish to go through the process of re-appreciating freedom
For i've never been the sort to waste it.
I've learnt from it
During the time i lost it, i was compensated with friendship and camaraderie.
I substituted it with the sense of duty and responsibility for my men.
I made more out of it
I learnt to stay strong, to not fight
to voice out, to suppress
to hold on, and sometimes,
to let go.
I'll cherish it, like i used to
Posted at 7:23 AM